You know, the thing I don’t get lately is how people portray themselves on Social Media. It’s like we’re all supposed to only post about when we’re happy, when we’re making money, when all things are just beautiful… But what about when things aren’t like that? Can we just not post about them because people will think you’re being negative? Why can’t we be real to one another and feel like it’s acceptable to show how we’re really feeling?

We have all these apps that can take a totally normal photo and change the color of it to try and make ourselves look prettier. What’s wrong with the original? Why are we so worried about what other’s will think about us? Why do we live in a society where everyone judges one another so much that we feel we can’t say to one another; “look, things are not ok right now and I would like your support” without feeling like you’ll get talked about behind your back? “Well little missy, that’s not the way to get people to support you or to join your business.” You must always be positive, you must always be in the mode of attracting more people through your positive energy.

I may try and always take the positive route or the high road, but some days you just can’t. Some days you’re down in the troughs and it’s hard to even see the light at the top. Some days you just want to sit and do nothing and watch tv or just sleep.

You may be wondering, where is all of this coming from? For those of you close to me, you know what I have been going through. I’m not at liberty now to post everything and be open about it. I am hoping that one day soon I can.

I can tell you though, that from my experience lately I have lost 8 pounds. I hardly ate anything the past two days simply because I don’t have an appetite and each day seems to be harder than the last. While I may not be comfortable enough to post a picture of myself on Social Media that will show how I really feel, I am going to get cleaned up soon, put on some mascara  believe that better things are coming my way.

The only thing that seems to help me lately (other than my amazing fiance and mom who are always there to try and lift me up), is diving into Young Living stuff. I use at least one or two things from that company everyday and it helps to take my mind off negative crap. Dusting off my shoulders and having Doug turn the video camera on me so I can share how the products is helping me, it takes my mind off of everything. If only for just a few moments. Today I had a shake with Sulferzyme and Alkalime. Since I haven’t been getting all the nutrition I need, adding those two powders to my shake is definitely helping.

I’m also getting some positive feedback about those videos so it’s nice to know that people are actually tuning in to watch them. I wouldn’t share about the products if they weren’t freaking amazing. I mean, Doug is now rummaging through our oils to diffuse one (most likely it’ll be Stress Away or Orange) while frolicking around singing like a British person to  make me feel better. So hey, at least I have that going for me 🙂 I took a picture but he refuses I post it.

While I’m a little afraid to post this, I’m going to anyways. I’m not perfect, I’m not always happy, but I do know that I am strong and I can do this. I know great things are coming my way. If you’re going through a tough time and are afraid to talk about it, know that you will make it through. You can do it.