Two things can happen to you when you’re depressed. 1. you curl up into a little ball and stay there and refuse to see the light of day because it’s just too hard to get up. 2. A switch turns on in your head that says, I can do this, I can overcome this. Granted, that switch may be buried under floor, between the wood and inside of a lockbox. BUT, it’s there and you can find if you choose to find it.

Let me preface this and state that I never understood depression. I never understood how people couldn’t just change their minds and make their realities better. I literally couldn’t relate. I never thought that depression would hit me. Nor did I think it would be so hard to overcome it. I thought that my mind was so strong and powerful that I could just find that switch as if it were floating in front of my face everyday. In the words of my mother “always reach for a better thought, baby.” It was those words that helped me in my (or so I thought) hard times. Those words still exist during this grandiose hard time in my life. But like the switch, they were locked somewhere far away.

In a depressed state, you don’t even care to find the switch, or those good words. It’s a state of total refusal of anything good or positive. It’s a “I don’t care if I work out, I don’t care if I eat right, I don’t care if you don’t like me, I don’t care what I am suppose to do today… I just don’t care. AND, I’m doing nothing about it.”

I had that moment last night. The one where my fiance looked at me with caring eyes and dropped to his knees in front of me while I sit on the couch. It was a moment where all he could do was wrap his arms around me and ask me if he could get anything for me. He recalled that my doctor prescribed me a Volium and told me that maybe I should take it. Maybe I needed to be numb to the world and maybe that would help. I took a half of one and passed out. Woohoo, that did nothing productive for me and my sweet fiance just had to put up with me being a couch potato. What a fun night right?

That CRAP doesn’t ever help. It’s a mask over the real issue. The real issue here is in my mind. I had/have to overcome it.

I woke early this morning and decided to make a shake. Maybe something healthy will help my attitude and maybe I will go and work out. Maybe both of those things combined will get me out of my slump. I have all of these great products from Young Living that I know can help and have been helping me along the way, but I haven’t been religious with them like I used to be.

I’m going to try something different from here on out. Depression meds are not the answer. Natural is (for me anyways). The natural things I have like Frankincense oil and Lavender are going to be my go to’s. There’s a reason why Frankincense oil was referenced in the Bible like 2 or 3 hundred times. It’s an uplifter. It raises spiritual awareness. Lavender is super calming. I’ve rubbed both on the bottoms of my feet and have also been drinking my shake with my (it really actually is) tasty chocolate protein shake. I am going to peel myself up off this couch and go work out. Endorphin’s are natures way of making you feel happy. BTW, I’m not saying that Lavender and Frankincense are for depression, all I know is that one is an uplifter and the other is a calmer.

I may not know everything, but one thing I know for certain – I can do this. I will overcome and live out my dreams. If you’re battling with depression, stress, anxiety, any of those things – you will overcome it too. It’s just placing one foot in front of the other towards finding that switch in your mind. That switch is the key to feeling better. Supplement yourself with other natural uplifters (is that even a word – not sure), don’t go numb to the world. The worlds deserves to see you in all your beauty so you can shine and live out your dreams too.

I don’t know how tomorrow will be or how I am going to reach my dreams or if I’ll have another Debby Downer moment. BUT, I know with every step I take, that I’m moving forward towards my dreams. Remember, just start off with saying “I can do this” and roll out of bed and put one foot in front of the other. Keep on going til you find your switch. You can do this.